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  He glowered, and yet the expression lacked heat. "All right. It's 9:03. Let's get down to business."

  "All right. Let's."

  Over the next hour, he explained the complex camera system he intended to put into place. Once, only once, she accidentally touched him. He jolted, as if she'd burned him. A bad reaction, or a really, really good one?

  The next time she touched him was on purpose. Again, he jolted.

  Focus. Business now, play later.

  Basically every inch of her bar and parking lot would be filmed twenty-four hours a day, with the exception of the bathrooms and the inside of her apartment. A panic button would be added to her apartment, and with a few tweaks, the closet in her bedroom would become a safe room. She would hire three bouncers, though he'd suggested four, and all three males would be big, burly and fearless; they would enforce her rules and eject anyone who acted out of line. And if ever she held a big event, he had employees in the city who would drive down to help with security. Finally, she would hire a full-time night watchman, who would patrol the parking lot, stopping any outside mischief before it had time to enter the bar.

  "You do realize all these changes and additions will eat up my profits, right?" Thousands of dollars would be spent on cameras and installation, plus the ongoing salaries of four new employees.

  "If something were to happen to your bar, you'd make zero profits. But, to supplement your income, you can begin hosting daytime events. Think about it. The bar is closed mornings and afternoons every day of the week. You can offer private parties, showers, whatever. The possibilities are endless."

  The Strawberry Valley book club did need a bigger place to get together. And the local matchmaker wanted a venue for the meet and greets she was hoping to host. But everything Jude suggested meant more work for Ryanne, and she was already overtaxed.

  Still, he was right. What if she made enough money to pay for all the security additions, salaries and upgrades for her travels? Excitement sparked.

  "The panic button you mentioned," she said. "It will be linked to Blueberry Hill PD? Strawberry Valley PD? Grapevine PD?"

  A muscle jumped underneath his eye. "None of the above. The signal will go to LPH Protection. We have monitors in place 24/7. Someone there will notify 911 as well as call Daniel, Brock...or me."

  Delicious, drugging warmth spilled through her. Getting personal with Jude Laurent... "Are you saying you'll drop whatever you're doing in order to save a damsel in distress?"

  His nod was immediate. "I will. So will they."

  "Well, hiring the right employees will take time." Am I really going to do this?

  "I know. That's why I'll be acting as a bouncer in the meantime."

  Her heart leaped, a thousand butterflies taking flight in her stomach. Jude...nearby every night... "There's a slight problem with your plan. You make my customers uncomfortable."

  "Good. They'll be on their best behavior."

  "Or they'll leave and never return."

  His wide shoulders hiked in a shrug.

  Such a contradiction, this man. Helpful, but indifferent. Kind, but aloof. Smoldering, but standoffish.

  "All right," she said, and sighed. Safety first. "You have permission to proceed. With everything." She couldn't help but add, "After I hear my daily compliment."

  One brow arched. "Rescuing your cat wasn't enough?"

  "Our cat. We're co-owners." She'd almost said coparents, but had stopped herself in time. No reason to remind him of the daughters he'd lost.

  "Fine." His lips compressed, and he gave her his patented I disapprove look. "You want a compliment, you get a compliment. You are a...singular woman."

  She waited for him to say more. He didn't.

  Well. "Singular woman" was as good a compliment as any, she supposed, and maybe kinda sorta better than she'd anticipated. "Just so you know, I'll expect something a lot more personal tomorrow."

  "Why?" he grated. "Why do you care what I think about you?"

  Make a man laugh, and he'll have a good day. Teach a man to have fun, and he'll have a good life.

  Remembering her plan, she twirled a lock of hair around her finger and batted her lashes at him. "Don't be silly, praised one. I just like to watch you squirm."

  CHAPTER FOUR

  FOR THE NEXT WEEK, Jude did his best to avoid the too flirtatious, too happy Ryanne. An impossible task, considering he worked at the Scratching Post each of the seven days, installing cameras in the morning, checking food deliveries in the afternoon, acting as a bouncer in the evening and helping care for Belle every minute in between. The pregnant, very grumpy cat hadn't yet given birth.

  Ryanne had texted him a few times, too. Random invitations to do ridiculous things.

  Let's go to a finger-painting workshop! We've GOT to improve our employer-employee relations.

  His response? How will finger paint help us?

  Duh! Our bodies are the canvases and we get to paint each other. (You know, a little hands-on learning. Or big. Yeah, probably big.)

  No.

  Not just no, but hell, no.

  Her next text had read What about a petting zoo in the city??? (I promise I'm not the animal you'll be stroking.)

  Again he'd replied, No.

  Movie? I'll pay AND share my popcorn w/you.

  Another solid No.

  She texted him a gif of a cartoon character sobbing.

  Avoiding this woman had begun to prick at his pride. He'd once been part of a military unit known as the Ten. Ten soldiers sent on the most dangerous missions--secret missions that would never be talked about in history books. They'd killed the enemy and rescued other soldiers amid impossible odds of survival. Amid it all, Jude, Brock and Daniel had seen and done things no human should have seen or done. It changed them.

  Brock now tried to make everyone he met fall in like with him, since he couldn't like himself. Daniel kept all newcomers at a distance, too afraid of losing another person, and Jude...he tended to numb-out, and live life on autopilot.

  He craved autopilot. But Ryanne had twisted him into a million little knots, and none of those knots helped him stay numb.

  Despite her--or because of her--he pushed himself to his limits, wanting to get the job settled as soon as possible. As soon as he finished installations, he would make Brock front man. That way, Brock would receive a notice when something went wrong at the bar, and Jude could finally wipe Ryanne from his mind.

  Already he'd spoken to Martin Dushku, who'd thrown more shade than a decades-old oak. He'd lied with a smile, misdirected with ease and hid his threats behind false concern.

  Jude felt sorry for the man's wife. The pair had been together for thirty-one years and had two adult children. A twenty-seven-year-old son named Filip and a twenty-three-year-old daughter named Paulina; they also had a four-year-old grandchild named Thomas.

  Filip, Thomas's father, was in prison for manslaughter, with only a year left on his sentence. Interestingly enough, Jude had been unable to find any mention of Thomas's mother.

  When Jude had first walked onto the construction site, two goons had closed in fast to frisk him, as he'd known they would. Of course, they hadn't found the small metal pins sheathed in the heels of his boots. More than that, Jude himself was a weapon. He could turn any innocent object into a weapon, as well. An ink pen, a keyboard. A paper clip. A chair.

  After coming up empty, the men escorted him into a luxurious trailer, where Dushku perched behind a desk. The conversation had been short and anything but sweet.

  "Both the Scratching Post and its owner are under my protection," Jude had said. "You won't like what happens if you harm them. And keep your stable off Ryanne's property. The next time someone sells a ride at the Scratching Post, a live stream will be the least of your troubles."

  Dushku had chuckled, not the least bit intimidated. "You must be mistaken. I value women and would never take part in prostitution. And I certainly wouldn't do so on Miss Wade's property. I've heard about her pr
oblems with the local PD." He'd sighed, as if weary. "If sex and drugs are being sold at the Scratching Post, I'm sure authorities will believe Miss Wade is the one responsible."

  "I didn't say anything about drugs," Jude had grated.

  The man's amusement had bloomed into a smirk. "I've already looked into you, Mr. Laurent. You were a good soldier once. A husband and father. Now you're a cripple with nothing to lose--except another leg."

  Behind him, one of the guards had snickered. "What do you call a man with one leg? A pogo stick."

  Laughter had abounded while Jude simmered in his seat. Rage and grief had bubbled in his chest; the two emotions were always there, rooted deep in his heart, but some days were worse than others. How dare this scumbag mention Constance and the twins!

  "If you take me on, Mr. Laurent, you will fail." For a moment, only a moment, Dushku had allowed his true demeanor to surface, his features cold as ice. "I promise you."

  Mere seconds had passed as Jude struggled to control his breathing, though it had felt like an eternity.

  "Did the truth hurt your feelings?" Dushku had shaken his head. "I'm not sure why. You are a cripple without a family, and I won't hesitate to ruin this new life you've carved out for yourself."

  More rage. More grief. At the best of times, Jude felt like only half a man. What if he couldn't protect Ryanne?

  He'd mimicked the man's smirk. "I don't think you searched deep enough into my background, Mr. Dushku. I'm a hunter, born and bred. When I was just a boy, I learned to stalk and kill deer and wild hogs. As a man, Uncle Sam taught me to stalk and kill men. I'm very good. My victims are never found." He'd stood. "Again, I suggest you stay on your side of the street, and we'll stay on ours. I won't stop you from running your business, but I will stop you from hurting innocents."

  Dushku had said, "I, too, would hate for any harm to come to innocents, especially someone as kind and beautiful as Miss Wade. If she decides to sell the bar within the next couple of months in order to travel the world as she dreams, I'm willing to help her. If not... You might be a hunter, Mr. Laurent, but I'm a ghost. You'll never see me coming."

  Jude had left, before he broke down and showed Dushku the error of his ways.

  So far, there had been only one attempt to strike at Ryanne. Blueberry Hill PD raided the bar, harassing customers as they checked IDs and asked questions about "reported suspicious activity." Jude had admired Ryanne's calm in the midst of the chaos, and he'd been surprised by the support of her patrons, almost everyone rushing to her defense, forcing the officers to leave without making an arrest.

  "A little help, please." Ryanne's sex-drugs-and-rock-and-roll voice stopped him in his tracks.

  Behind the counter where he'd watched her mix drinks was the entrance to the basement. He watched as the gorgeous woman lugged a large box up the steps. Mason jars clinked together, her infamous fruit cocktail moonshine sloshing inside. Beads of sweat glistened on her forehead, and he almost--almost--rushed to her aid. While he was good with protecting her and her home, he avoided anything related to the actual buying, selling and marketing of alcohol.

  "Is this a test?" he finally asked. "This seems like a test. The moment I help you, you'll accuse me of setting back feminism a hundred years."

  "Yeah, that sounds exactly like me," she muttered as she lumbered past him.

  He kind of wanted to grin. Usually she was the one teasing him.

  No wonder she did it so often. Hello, fun. Long time no see.

  For the next hour, Jude worked like a man possessed, installing motion-sensitive lights in the bathroom hallway. Soon the bar would open to the public, and he would have to walk the room for eight hours, on the lookout for any signs of wayward activity. Guaranteed, he would irritate people tonight. His leg had pained him all day, darkening his mood. He needed to rest, but he needed to work and remain distracted more.

  When he entered the main area, he found Ryanne doing what she did best, mixing drinks for Lyndie and Dorothea. Considering Brock had a secret thing for Lyndie, a delicate strawberry blonde, and Daniel was almost always attached to Dorothea's side, Jude expected his friends to be nearby, but...no.

  "--negotiated. Said I could have three orgasms a day or one more dog." Dorothea rolled her big, blue eyes. She was a pretty woman with dark, corkscrew curls, and the soft curves of a '50s pinup model. "I demanded four orgasms a day and two more dogs, of course."

  Ryanne threw back her head, laughing with abandon.

  Lust punched Jude straight in the gut, shocking him, waking once deadened nerve endings. Tingles exploded throughout his entire body, followed by heat and hunger, such clawing hunger.

  He gnashed his teeth as he fought the sensations. Want a bartender? No! And yet, the hunger persisted.

  "Did he protest or thank you?" she asked. She looked good enough to eat, her silken hair falling in a haphazard braid over her shoulder--a shoulder bared by a lacy pink tank top. Short shorts revealed the long length of her legs while cowgirl boots adorned her feet, stretching up her calves.

  Made of sugar, spice and vodka poured on ice.

  "Well?" Lyndie prompted.

  "He protested...and thanked me," Dorothea replied with a proud grin.

  Ryanne gave her a thumbs-up. "Good girl. Always up the ante."

  Jude bit his tongue to stop a rush of protests.

  Ryanne had once claimed she liked to make him squirm, and she'd proven it every day since. Her hips swayed enthusiastically any time she walked past him, creating a sultry, powerful rhythm. Often she cast him coquettish glances and blew him kisses. And she touched him constantly, a brush of her fingers here, a squeeze of his hand there. She cracked jokes, and made lewd innuendos--and he wasn't sure how to handle her.

  Right now, he was sure of only one thing. A relationship with Ryanne wasn't possible. If his body had finally woken from hibernation, he would maybe think about considering being with a woman, scratching an itch. But he wouldn't pick her. He would pick someone easily forgettable, someone as uninterested in a relationship as he was.

  The moment he did, Constance would no longer be the last woman he'd slept with.

  He rubbed the almost debilitating ache in his chest.

  He'd never cheated on Constance, even when offers had been made. His teammates, the other members of the Ten--everyone except Daniel and Brock--had mercilessly teased him about it, and had ultimately given him the nickname of Priest.

  Ryanne's gaze landed on him, and her smile fell, confusing him. His mood affected hers?

  In a flash, her smile returned and widened. "Jude." Only she could say his name and sound as if she were moaning in pleasure, delivering another punch of lust to his gut.

  He wanted to hate her, but more and more he actually...liked her.

  Not only did she have a drink limit for the ultra-potent moonshine, but she cut off anyone who appeared drunk. A legal requirement, yes, but she also kept a cab company on standby.

  She made zero exceptions to the rules, even when customers protested, loudly. No one could charm her from her refusal, though some people did--cough Brock cough--manage to get wasted regardless, fooling the seasoned Ryanne into believing he was sober. When that failed, he convinced others to buy drinks for him.

  Something else Jude had discovered. Ryanne truly cared about her customers. Her kindness wasn't for show. She treated everyone with respect and affection, whether they ordered drinks or not. When someone told a story, she listened. When someone flirted with her, she flirted right back. If anyone had a craving for something that wasn't listed on the menu, she headed to the kitchen to see what she could do.

  Smiling again, Ryanne waved him over.

  He settled in a chair on the other side of the bar, avoiding her friends.

  "I owe you a huge thank you for the list you left me this morning," she said.

  He nodded, his version of you're welcome. He'd written up a To Do list in case Belle went into labor and he wasn't nearby.

  "Are you hungry? You
look hungry." She leaned toward him and whispered, "Come upstairs later, and I'll heat something up for you."

  His stomach twisted. "Excuse me?"

  "Why?"

  Not this again. "What are you planning to heat up?" Do not say you.

  "A pie, of course."

  Disappointment hit him. No, no. Relief. Only relief.

  "I owe you a thank-you, remember?" Her gaze raked over him. "Or did you want me to heat something else up?"

  Fire in his blood, a tightening in his jeans. Too late. He was already burning. "Stop flirting with me," he grated.

  "Hey, what are you guys whispering about? And did I hear you thank him for leaving a list this morning? You don't usually rise before noon." Dorothea wiggled her brows. "Or was Jude the one who did the rising?"

  Ryanne chuckled behind her hand.

  Lyndie snickered. "You don't have to answer her, Jude." Even amused, the petite beauty looked like she'd break with the next gust of wind. "We'll just let our imaginations run wild."

  Knowing anything he said could be misconstrued as an innuendo, he pressed his lips together and sat a few seats away. His patella momentarily rolled out of place, and he had to hide a wince.

  "Ignore them." Ryanne leaned over the bar, and her magnificent cleavage beckoned his gaze... Look at me, look how pretty I am...

  He gulped. The scent of strawberries and cream wafted from her and, this time, lust didn't punch him in the gut; it washed through him like a gentle rain. A far more dangerous occurrence. The punch had mixed pain with pleasure. The rain promised something he wasn't sure he'd ever feel again: peace.

  "Are you parched? Let me satisfy you," she said, and he knew she'd used those particular words on purpose.

  He gripped the bar to stop himself from adjusting the growing problem behind his fly. He wished Ryanne would act like the girl he'd first met. The one who'd enjoyed sniping at him.

  "I am parched," he finally said. "I'd like to drink the tears of my enemies."

  A laugh burst from her, her features glowing with amusement. "I'm out of tears. How about sweet tea?"

  He gave a brusque nod. "Thanks."

  Motions fluid, she filled his glass then lifted a small plastic tub from behind the bar. A tub she opened and sat in front of him, revealing a club sandwich and hand-cut fries.

  Had she reserved both for him?

  "Eat now, and later," she said, and he realized yes, yes she had.